Post #11: Not just a coincidence...

April 15th

I laid in my recliner last night to rest after a big day. Yesterday I decided I felt good enough to go watch my youngest daughter crush her track meet and I'm so glad I did! I think she broke the middle school record for the 100m dash and possibly the 200m. I'm so glad I made the decision to go! It was really my first big outing to see friends in public and sit through an event. I woke up yesterday feeling a bit different, I didn't have the usual pain in my breasts that I have had constantly since the surgery, especially my right side. The whole day seemed better like I turned a corner in my healing. Thank you God! The track meet was so fun seeing my friends and cheering on the kids that I love so much! I was able to gently hug friends who have been so supportive to me since day 1. It was so therapeutic and felt amazing! I was extremely limited in my movement and not how I would want to be, but I was there and able to do what I love to do which is cheer on my kids.

I relaxed the rest of the night in my recliner (surprise surprise), and tried to close my eyes to fall asleep around 11:30pm. I think I dozed off for about 10 minutes, then was up. and up. and up. Walked down to the kitchen got a bowl of cereal around 2am, and then laid back in my recliner for the next 2 hours worrying about everything. How am I going to get everything I want to get done for big events coming up (my son's graduation party), my onco score, will I have hair for my son's graduation day, my onco score, will I feel tired and not good if I need chemo, my onco score, on and on... Then, I prayed. I prayed to God about my worries and asked him that my score comes back low, I asked for my favorite numbers 11, 2, 6, 9... anything low. I think I fell asleep around 4am.

I wake up this morning to the sound of my phone vibrating on the table next to me. I pick it up and my phone screen reads "Dr. Budd Cleveland Clinic". I answered so quickly. It was Dr. Budd, my oncologist. I was shocked and still half asleep since I feel like I just fell asleep. He continued to say that my onco test came back and my score is really low, and I will not need chemo. He wants to meet with me next week to talk through hormone therapy and my plan so I should keep my appt with him. The only words I could think to say is "yaaaaay!" My onco score was a 10. Thank you God!!!

Its not a coincidence, I prayed on my worries, and then today, hours later, I get a call with my prayers answered. Moments like this have happened to me continuously throughout this unwanted journey. It is absolutely incredible and so powerful the way God works. I don't know why I'm on this journey, but I know God is right with me every step of the way.

We text out to family and friends about the great news of no chemo, what I've been asking for prayers for weeks, and the responses are overwhelming. One of our dear friend's mom's says "Gods timing of this gift during the most Holy Week of the year is no coincidence." I find these words to resonate deep within my soul. It is so true, this is the week leading up to Easter weekend. My faith has never been so strong than right now. "Thank you God. And please help me find my purpose in this journey."