Post #12: I was / I am

April 20th Easter Sunday - I love this day. I love all holidays, but this year, this holiday and the reason behind it really resonates with me. We went to church this morning. I always love when we go, and today's message was beautiful and hit home. The miracle of Easter Sunday when Jesus rose from the tomb after the "Season of Doubt" after Jesus died on the cross the day before.

Hearing the word "doubt" really triggered emotions with me. Thinking back on these past several weeks, I had doubt and worry every.single.day, even after I would hear really great news about a test result or my pathology report, my first thought inside of me would be "what if". The doubt and the worry is always there for me. So when I heard our pastors message today about this historical story of Easter weekend, I related it to my journey in a way.

Our pastor's message today was "I was / I am". How Jesus writes new chapters in our life and what my new chapter will be.

I was blissfully ignorant to parts of my life. I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer that changed everything.

I was scared, worried and afraid.

I am writing a new chapter in my life.

I am now cancer-free.

I am part of God's plan.

I'm not sure what my next chapter is intended to be, but I plan to be more present and more intentional in it.

After church we went to my brother's house to celebrate Easter with my side of the family. The energy level was so high and filled with excitement. This was the first family gathering since learning about my Onco test and learning I did not need chemo. This was such wonderful news for the whole family and everyone was estatic about the news for me. All the cousins were there too who I haven't seen many of them since my diagnosis, all the hugs and smiles in the house today were electric and so heart warming. The true genuineness of the love shared in the house today was beautiful.

I prepared to gift my Grateful Hearts for the family today, after my 2 surgeons, my family were the next recipients

I was so excited to share with them. They have been by my side since day 1 and so supportive to our family every step of the way. They have been amazing and gifting them my Grateful Hearts was one small, special way I could express my gratefulness for them and their constant love.

Here's to new chapters, a new start and trying to figure out comes next.

Sharing Grateful Hearts with the family!

My Easter Blessings