Post #9: Feeling Thankful

April 3rd

I received a call back today from my oncology's office. The nurse started off asking if this was Misti, and I hesitantly said yes... She proceded to say that she received my messages and apologized for the delay but she was just returning from being out for a week and is backlogged with so much work and catch up. Of course I understood that and was ok. But the tone in her voice was not upbeat and positive. In my stomach, I knew it was bad news she was calling me back with. I looked at my husband with fear in my eyes, I knew he felt the same way about her tone. The nurse continued to say "We have your onco score test back..." More fear formed and my stomach started to turn. "Unfortunately.... " ugh. "Your test came back inconclusive. This doesn't happen often, but they need more tissue submitted to reset for your onco score." Ok. I finally breathed. Ok, I'm ok with that. Of course disappointing to have to continue to wait another 2-3 weeks before I know my full treatment plan, but atleast it wasn't "You need to start chemo next week." I know I still might hear that, but atleast it wasn't that, atleast there is still a chance I might not need chemo.

I really don't want chemo for obvious reasons. My son's graduation is coming up the end of May, his graduation party is early June, and I just want to get this chapter behind me and get back to my new normalcy, not more treatments. But, if I have to have chemo to lower my chances of reoccurrence, of course I will do it. And I hope I will do it gracefully and take it as it comes.

April 4th

I receive a text that my college daughter is coming home for the weekend! I'm so excited! To have all my kids together under one roof is the best gift I could ever ask for!

April 5th

Sitting around the island, all 6 of us are eating breakfast that my wonderful husband cooked up for us. I love these moments. My kids are all telling stories and we are entertaining my youngest with his "Would you rather" games. So many great laughs and great conversations. This is what I am living for. This is what I would do ANYTHING for. I feel so grateful for this crew around this island that I am recentered and ready to tackle anything.

In our conversation, I share with the kids about a project I need their help on for Grateful Hearts - the conversation just rolls with so many ideas - my heart is so happy! I love that my family is embracing this concept and brainstorming ideas for a new product I want to add to my website. Apparel. The girls are all over the idea and are heading out today to get what we need to make the idea into a reality.

All 4 kids head out to do some grocery shopping, Starbucks run (of course lol), and then hit Michaels and Hobby Lobby for Grateful Heart supplies. My husband starts day 1 of his health challenge down in our basement, and I sit up in my recliner anxious to work on my website. Sitting here i am grateful and blessed.

Life definitely can throw you lemons, but my mindset today is ready to make lemonade.

A snap from my crew heading off for their errands today! My heart is so happy!